Note - 20th April, 2016

Someone died
It hurt
it hurt deep as my affection marred profound
she whimpered in her sleep, unknowingly
               deep in pain
I watched her as she moved her eyelids bouncing around
the body was taking the pain of the mind
twitching, turning, not knowing what to do

when the skin hurts or the bones, you can touch and solace set in
when the inside hurts there is nothing to touch

I do not know what to say
my words left me
I listened, I heard and I did not find any meaning in them words
They were just passing by in the same horror with which death visited

Isn't death but a movement from the unknown to the known
      Isn't is it just a phase that leads you to better forlorn
Are we not selfish to beat ourselves here in our tedium
to say, this is my waking hour and what curse stuck this pitiful soul
How is it a curse? what is it?

Aren't we like the sand, the sea, the fishes, the dunes and the mountains?
        Aren't we a bunch of cells that need relinquish this figurine
and move to god knows what next?
Aren't we like all else on earth that seek to churn, change, mold and get better?
isn't this getting better?

In my pain I watch my love for you better
I seek answers
but from within my love for you....